Finding Strength and Reassurance After Narcissistic Abuse: A Reflection on Matthew 14:26-33 Jesus Walking on Water

Reflecting on Matthew 14:26-33 in the context of narcissistic abuse can offer profound insights into navigating fear, trust, and healing.

In the story of Jesus walking on water, the disciples’ fear is heightened by the storm, mirroring how those who have endured narcissistic abuse often feel overwhelmed and lost amidst life’s challenges. When everything seems calm, we may feel self-sufficient and distant from God, but it’s often in the midst of our storms that we realize our deep need for Him.

Peter’s request to walk on the water is a powerful act of faith. He steps out of the boat, his place of comfort, in the middle of the storm, just as Jesus calls us out of our comfort zones when we are most fearful and vulnerable. This reflects our journey of healing: stepping out of the familiar yet painful places and trusting Jesus, even when the storm rages around us. However, as Peter takes his eyes off Jesus and focuses on the wind, fear overtakes him, and he begins to sink. This is akin to the challenges faced during recovery, where old fears and doubts can resurface, tempting us to lose faith.

In moments like these, it’s important to remember that fear can often be a projection of our past experiences with humans onto our relationship with God. Shame may make us want to hide from God, but He understands our humanity and our struggles. Jesus doesn’t wait for us to be free from fear before calling us; instead, He meets us in our fear and invites us to trust Him. Just as Jesus immediately reached out to save Peter, God is always ready to catch us when we call out to Him, offering unwavering support and compassion.

The story also reminds us that our walk with God should not be influenced by others’ journeys. Peter’s experience on the water was his alone with Jesus, and we, too, must keep our gaze fixed on Christ, regardless of how others are walking their path. When we try to navigate life without a close relationship with Jesus, we experience more storms. However, when we invite Him into our struggles, He brings peace and calm.

Finally, this passage teaches us that our suffering can be redeemed when we find the gift within it. The storm and Peter’s fear were not in vain; they led to a deeper understanding of who Jesus is and a stronger faith. Similarly, the pain of narcissistic abuse can lead us to a closer relationship with God, where we find peace, healing, and renewal.

In summary, this passage encourages us to:

• Acknowledge our fears but not let them control us.

• Trust in Jesus, especially when it’s hardest.

• Recognize that God’s presence brings peace amidst the storms.

• Understand that our suffering can lead to growth and deeper faith.
  
  

By keeping our gaze fixed on the Lord, we can find the strength to move forward, even through the most challenging times.